Anger

All that I seem to be feeling lately is a system of angerr. The only times that I have been able to not feel that way is when I have been helping people. I guess that it leads me to believe that this is my only real path in life. To be honest it seems like that is the only joy that I am able to find in life. I just wish that I could find a happiness in life that is not based upon anyone else in this world. I mean so much of what I want in life is truly based upon other people. Ya know that feeling of being with someone, the feeling that someone cares about me more than anyone else on an equal level. It's not that I know that I am not special, but rather it is simply that I am unique. I realize this more and more that honestly there is no one in the world who is like me. That kinda just makes me just feel alone. The lack of anyone finding me "special" just saddens me. So anger fills me all of the time. But more and more I guess that I just realize that I will forever simply remain alone. Meh, I guess that it just isn't importnat any more and I should just stop bitching and whining. After all its all that I do, or at least all that I can do well.