Dark Ponderings

Well life is still interesting. I think that it is time for me to stop this blog. Its just time for me to stop alot of things as well. I guess that sounds a little darker than I intend it to be. I guess that I should stop being selfish and live in reality. I have to realize that life will be life and I guess that I just need to stop grasping for it. I mean I want somethings in life so badly, but is it going to happen? Who knows, but one thing is true, I cannot allow my happiness to hurt others. I guess that means that being who I am is not enough for people, or rather not enough for life. melodramatic i know but i guess that i just feel that it is the truth. So for a last entry this is for Everyone,

May Love and Happiness,
Guide You,
And Enfold You In Its Wings,
To Be Strength When There Is None
And Lift You Up
To The Dreams You Desire.

Brandon P. Moore

Late Night Ponderings

Well its 4 in the morning now and still up with no signs of sleep coming soon. What to do? Aha write something that hopefully will make some sense I guess. I have found life to be interesting lately. It seems like everyone is starting to show some signs of happiness and truly that is all that I can ask for. I founad out some interesting information though, Stebbie has the potential of coming to live in Alaska!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! For those of you who do not know of Stebbie well the bottom line is that she is just one of the most amazing people in existence. She is my cousin though I was raised thinking of her as my aunt and is one of the people in this world who has a very deep understanding of me. Now don't get mad right yet, I'm sure that most of you have a time when you have been confused by me. I really hope that she does make it. It would be nice to have family a little closer than they are. I find myself learning patience all over again though this time it seems to be a different patience. Pondering what it is that life is truly all about. Realizing that what life is all about is truly open to the perceptions of the person pondering it. I mean I think that right now I actually have alot of priorities in my life. But the one that I am talking about right now is that of helping people. I really want to help everyone I know find happiness in their lives. Sometimes I feel that I actually achieve something with this, you know that feeling that I actually have helped someone on the path to their happiness. Other times I feel like I fail and that is a hard thing for me to feel. I feel in other regards like people don't even listen to me. Its not that I want to control anyone but rather that I KNOW sometimes what it is that I am talking about and because I care that I say those things. I am dealing with the problem as well of confronting things that I cannot believe are coming into play again. If there is one thing that I cannot stand about dealing with people is that I cannot stand people guilting others to get what they desire. I don't want people to not achieve what they desire in their hearts but there is a right and wrong about it. I guess that there is alot of things that have been on my mind though, but I just want happiness for everyone.

Scairt nóiméad
(Translation to English from Irish "Shout out time")
Stebbie- I really hope that you make it to Fairbanks. I really miss you and love you so much
Sam- Thank you for being you. I wish that "evil" talk could include me (shocking I know) but thank you for just being you, its why I love you too.
Topher- What to say, save you can graduate just put your mind to it.
Dad- I am really proud of everything that you have accomplished thus far with school.
Sarah- I really hope that you find your desires in life.
Kate- tusa aici mo croí, mise grá tú. Nothing more really needs to be said but thank you.

Happy Valentine's Day

Hey Everyone,

I just thought that I would post to say that I hope that everyone is having a good day. I love the lot of ya and I wanted to let you know.

Shout out
Sarah- Well this is the first time apart. But I feel that we have grow together and apart through this time. I love you so much and in what sense who knows.
Sam- I really appreciate you coming to work and bringing me all of the goodies. I will treasure them always. You still amaze me and I do love you, even though you are "evil."
Kate- Ya know there are no real words to describe so I know that you know what I mean to say. Both California or Hawaii sound good.
Topher- You deserve the best in the universe for being the man that you are. I am proud of my new "younger Bro."
Mom and Dad- Love the both of you. Thank you for being there for me.
Grandma- I love you and your opinions. Never be afraid to share them with me they help to clarify things.


Later Days~b

Ahh Life How . . . Interesting

Well life is taking an interesting turn in many ways. It seems that everyone is almost opposed to being happy at all this semester. That makes me very sad to tell the truth. All that I want truly is for people to be happy yet everyone seems to strive for that unhappiness. Don't these people know that I have the monopoly in that area. No seriously though it really worrys me and I hope that people will overcome it. On a happy note though tomarrow is the 21st for the Littlest Elder sister, that's right Sarah!!! Ahh fun. More and more seems to slip away and chaos begins to reign. Its just that I am scared for alot of people. Confusion seems to be getting too much of a hold on people. Life is just too short for all of this. Clarity and honesty needs to be our weapons, tempered with love. It seems that everyone is too serious. Learn that laughter is truly the best medicine for everything. I know how hypocritical of me. But it takes even me (laughter) years to produce the reactions that I know. I just simply need a companion. You know someone to share everything with but not actually deal with the commitment other than that of love. Its kinda hard to explain but I hope that everyone will understand.

Later Days~b

none this week I have told you all in person what is important.

Ramblings on at work

Well I am here at work and feeling glad that my weekend is here. It seems like although I am in a good mood my heart is a little heavy. I just hope that everyone is happy and remember if there is something that I can do to help I will. I guess that I don't have much in the way of thoughts for today though as I am extremely tired from work. Everything seemed to break tonight with a big event too, agh.

Shout out to everyone-
You are all special and I love you all.

Later Days~b