Questions

So I ponder many things all of the time. But lately it has been of a different sort I guess. I am wondering what it is that makes friends friends. It should be a 50/50 deal shouldn't it? Or even to go so far as to say that you can love someone no matter what. But how much can one person really take? To honestly search for those people who will give something back to another, or that will go that extra mile for someone at no cost or expense to themselves is a hard thing. Most people who say that they care, or that they are your friend are willing, just so long as it is not an inconvience to them. However, there are those out there who are willing to help people out it just seems so rare. But what is a friend really worth to most people? There are many people out there who would say that they would do anything for a friend, but when push comes to shove they well push the friend out of the picture. There are those people out there who seem to be nothing but friends to people as well. These always seem to be the ones that are walked upon at the drop of a hat as well. There are many people who bond very deep with others, yet that is never really returned to them. It is all good and well to speak of love, but it seems that it is all dust in the wind. So who really seems to care about another? This is a source of trial and error it seems but heartache is so hard to deal with. This leads to the next question of why it is that people lie about their feelings for others? There are so many out there who simply talk the talk, but lack anything of substance. They seem to have this ideal of a person and if the reality and the dream conflict then that person is shoved aside. Is the illusion, the perception of a dream so strong that when a little reality rears its face then the whole of the feeling is shattered? Questions upon questions. The only truth seems to be that one has to depend upon oneself.
A life of constant dissappointment and loss. To deal with the forever loosing of love, friendship, and companionship is a hard thing. Granted we can change these things, this is something that I myself am trying to do now. Placing faith in others almost seems to be a folly now. There just seems to be so few out there that are really worthy of that faith. That ultimate trust. People are so quick to dismiss others when it becomes convient for them. They come across an obstacle with someone and they quickly give up. Is that really the strength of their caring, of their love? Question upon questions.