What is wrong. . .

Well November is almost upon us. For some reason I find myself in an interesting moods of sorts. There is so much going on right now but I find that I am more and more alone. Though I don't want to be either. School is something that I am having a hard time with, not that the work is too hard but rather that I am having a hard time caring about it. With the exception of my digital photography class I am disliking all of the others. Though I do understand how important these are but I am having a hard time in doing this. Also I am having so much trouble it seems in understanding people and guarding my heart against being so sensitive. I don't know what to do about things in life right now. Its like I am floating in a sea of nothingness with my shadow lover courting me. Though she hasn't wooed me yet it seems to be harder and harder everyday to refuse her. I think that it is simply duty that stops me from accepting. But I guess that it seems hard to think that life is simply duty. I mean there are other things that I do feel but it seems that with the onset of winter these feelings get harder to banish. Who knows I guess. Though I hope that everyone is having a great life and I hope that all wishes are coming true.